When your baby is inside you, you hear a lot about motherhood from your mom, from your friends, other women in your life who are moms and a lot even from those who are not! And after the baby pops out you realise that all of that information or the perception you have made of motherhood is a big LIE!!!! It is undoubtedly the most beautiful experience of life but it has it’s own fifty other shades too. I’d say it takes time to get into the skin of a mom and the first year of your life as a mom is unforgettable.
Motherhood has been the most euphoric yet the most daunting experience for me and I witness this paradox get even more complex as my baby and his mom grow each passing day. Like they say – the moment a baby is born, a mother is born. A mother that never existed before, the woman did, but the mother did not, she is absolutely new.
Motherhood changes you. Painfully, and beautifully, it changes you. I could be a smoother version of myself, less sleep-deprived, better dressed; my list of worries could begin and end only with me. But I’m at the mercy of motherhood!
I have discovered strengths I did not even know existed. So yes motherhood changed me and how! Would I like to get back to my older self – NEVER!
Here are a 50 things that have changed about me:
#1 I am a lot more patient (if you are a mom, you know what I am talking about)
#2 I am stronger – The strength I can sense, resides within me, and that is not confined to Just my body but extends to my mind and soul.
#3 I am thicker – around 10 kilograms more than what I use to be
#4 Yet I now respect my body… finally
#5 I sleep a lot less – when my toddler finally hits the sack I’d rather write this post
#6 I do better research than FBI
#7 I analyse Baby poop and it’s colour and texture
#8 Baby poo, pee, puke does not gross me out
#9 I can hold my pee for until I forget that I actually wanted to pee
#10 I am a lot more confident than I was – about myself and about my loved ones.
#11 I am a lot, lot less judgemental about other moms or even women for that matter. There isn’t any right or wrong. Or atleast I am no one to judge that.
#12 I can do almost anything and everything with a baby spilling out of one arm
#13 I am a lot more independent. There ain’t a thing I cannot do myself for myself or my family
#14 I wear my heart on my sleeves
#15 and I watch it run around me
#16 I cry a lot more
#17 yet gather myself and get back to my strong woman avtaar much sooner
#18 My baby’s pain feels much much worse than my own
#19 I respect my parents a lot more, I love them in a new way
#20 I also love my husband a lot more
#21 I go without speaking to my besties for months
#22 my most interesting phone conversations don’t last longer than 3 minutes
#23 I choose cute minion shirts and colourful toys over the shoes I have been longing to have.
#24 I consider taking a shower a luxury
#25 I am never alone
#26 not the never alone in my thoughts kind of alone – but not never alone, even when I pee kind of alone
#27 Every day is a surprise
#28 I want to make this world a better place – really I do
#29 Yet I appreciate the world the way it is a lot more
#30 I have figured out the real reason why breasts exist.
#31 I care a lot less about my sagging breasts
#32 I have stopped watching television
#33 I don’t like watching news either, because I watch it from a mom’s perspective and it breaks my heart
#34 I have my own logic and reasoning
#35 I never quit.. I could tremble but quitting is not an option anymore
#36 Nothing is just mine, I share everything, even my favourite mint Icecream.
#37 I barely get time for myself
#38 but I make sure I take care of myself
#39 I have realised that material wealth can never buy true joy
#40 I don’t rely on a clock
#41 my schedules are set by my baby
#42 I have started to believe in things I use to believe as a child
#43 I now know what magic and miracles are
#44 Any number of hugs and kisses are never enough
#45 I now have a clearer vision of what I want
#46 And I am still up for surprises
#47 I know what ‘balancing’ and ‘multi-tasking’ really means.
#48 I feel like a hero among my friends who are not moms
#49 I can be a total mess and still have faith that I am going to be okay in a while
#50 I Love like never before, almost like it’s a superhuman power I possess❤️
This post is a part of the blog train started by Pooja Kawatra of Mums & Babies. Pooja has networked to bring together 41 moms across the GLOBE.
I am grateful to Richa, for introducing me.
I now let the train pass from my station and reach yet another wonderful place on Lian May’s blog.
Embark on an adventure with Laing and her loved ones at A Million Little Echoes as they unfold theri stories by bits and pieces. This is their cosy alcove. A diary which she hold dearly, providing a chronological framework of her family’s walk with life. Her duties are innumerable but life has become more purposeful because she is now a mother. One that stays at home and no, She does not think SAHMs do not take afternoon naps with their children every day. Read her post here